this photo of an american soldier using a flamethrower in okinawa...
in the flames and smoke emerges a horrific shape of what looks like a japanese demon with gruesome mantis arms
its like this young american soldier is burning japan and what comes out is the evil that infested Japan's military culture and the crimes they committed and he's shocked by its intensity
maybe Kobayashi would have liked this. it'd make for a nice intro scene.

as I get older, I'm beginning to feel the panic of not having done anything noteworthy and the anxiety of never being able to. how nice it'd be to have a wikipedia article on something you've done.
You don't even need to have a noteworthy life otherwise, but being in an article on an event that showcases the depths of the human condition is better than being an actor or whatever. the guy who assassinated Inejirō Asanuma has a WAY larger presence in the timeline of history than any celebrity I can think of.
his conviction, his purity, melded into a blade as sincere as a force of nature...
capturing the tragic transience of tears in rain is beyond important!!!

after all, you don't want to end up like dino island.
millions of years that may as well have passed in the blink of an eye.
but even if dino island has no personal records, it's the concept of it that brings such weight. or rather, it's the concept of a time that existed and never will again.

today is the best time in history to be able to experience Dino Island
66 million years ago was the worst
and even if we recreate it now
it will not be the same
for really its those 66 million years that I grieve

well anyways, maybe it's not so bad to go lamely either. But I hope for the rest of my life I never have to experience that horror of seeing a demon in the flames!